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Joelle's got something to say I guess talking is good even if it is to yourself . Say "cheese". Everything is gonna be fine with your life. |
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October 12 My Life Would Suck Without YouMany times I tell myself This is not the end of the world but I get disappointed again And over again I know everythime I am sincere With friends and people around me but Why do I get hurt so often
Time fades Everything fades My walls are closing in What is true in life again I continue to ask myself this same question I couldn't get answers from you poeple's eyes I know it's not late to turn away
I used to complain, curse and cry Fortunately, that's not all about my life Now I have to say My life does not suck Because there IS still something true Something that sees me when I am invisable Makes me feel I exist for a reason Reminds me I've still got faith in myself
That something is MUSIC My loyal friend Who is always there for me Whom I can always trust in this untrustwhorthy world
Will steeled Character polished Eyes sharpened My life would really suck without you because You bring the best in me September 25 Don 't feel like talkingI don't feel like talking these days. Just keep my mouth shut for a while. September 12 untitledThe new term begins. I am back at work again. For the past week, I've missed my former students so much. I got more than thirty text messages from my former stdents, most of whom are in college now. They told me about their life in college and all kinds of things. I wish I could be like them, young and energetic with tons of possibilities waiting.
Life is rutine for me. I need to do my job well, and that means I have to be a robot...But I manage to take some time out for my guitar class, and the hard part is that my chubby short fingers hurt so much. I have forgotten everything I learned during summer vocation...shame, huh? I practiced and practiced today till I couldn't touch the strings. Now my finger are killing me when I type. Ok....I'll stop. That's all. May 25 Me, sport?I should thank my "yard-mate" Alicia, who made me go out and and do a little sport. In fact, it all started when she asked me to teach her how to play table tennis two weeks ago. Yeah, I play table tennis, not an excellent player,though. Anyway, we went to the school palyground to practice and made some really intresting little friends from senventh grade. I have to admmit they are better players than us---a lot better, which hurts my pride to some extent.I am gonna practice more and let them know: Don't you ever sniff at me! HAHA.. It turns out that it's not bad to do a little reading after a good sweating from exercise. Come on, stop being lazy , go out and have fun! May 18 Be brave I had a good talk with one of my students this evening. First, I am happy to have been trusted. Obviously, he has some problems, I mean some serious problems about his life. He is often seen alone, always wearing that far-away and icy look on his face.He kinda has that sullen nature, which also keeps people at a distance. With the college entrance examinations approaching, his problems are getting intense. He does very well in his school work, but he is not happy. And the bad mood has been affecting his life and study lately. His maturity stuns me.He has cocooned himself up in his world. He said once he greeted one of his former classmates on the campus only to get an icy face in return. So he swore to save his words and wrapped himself up. I come to understand that he is not that indifferent but too sensitive and hurts easily. I realize that he is just like me. I had to tell him about my stories to convince him that there is still something that is worth our care and attention. Sometimes, we just tend to expect too much of poeple around us. Maybe it's only our own faults to think this way in the first place. Also sometimes we find some unbearable shortcomings in our friends,and vice versa. But that should't become the big rock in our way to find true friendship. The most important thing is when you get stumbled you can still resume your courage and carry on with your journey. There is something beautiful down the road waiting. I know sometimes, I might just be deceiving myself, but this way gives me hope. Believe me, having hope is much better! Everyday we are learning, from differnt poeple, about how to live our life. Good or bad, they all make us more mature and brave. Because they clear the vague images of things and poeple in our mind. We are finding ourselves more apdaptable. I used to complain a lot about everthing that goes out my line of the world. But now, I am silent, wacthing. You may dislike the world, yet you have to fit it somehow. So you HAVE to be accepting. It's your choice. That you are the only one who can make yourself happy or the opposite is fully sunk in now. Be brave, got it? April 15 THIS LIFE OF MINEI've never stopped trying to like this life. But I am not sure it's the life I still want in 5 or 10 years. Sometimes I just wonder whether it's all worthwhile. Escape is the best way out. I am a coward in life, always. It's definitely getting worse. There are times when I want to lock myself up, in my small world. I am scared and confused, though most of the time I am too proud to admit. I don't know what is real and what is false around me. Sometimes you just get hurt when you reveal your true self. What a shame! So I learn to hold back. I am losing myself. I am diappionted and scared and depressed. I don't know THIS ME anymore. The OLD ME is out OF date. But I like her. I miss the times when I want to cry, I just shed tears; when I feel like laughing, I just laugh my heart out. I want to fit in. To fit in this life. But I am so out of place. I don't know where this life is taking me to. What's waiting for me down this road. I keep telling myself to stay positive and motivated. To stick to what I believe in. But my memory is fading. For most of the time I'm feeding on my faith and memories. NOW... I don't like it when I have to struggle to dig for a smile and tell myself to be postive when I really want to lie down and drown myself in disappointment. I am not living the life I want. Who am I and what am I doing? IS ANYBODY OUT THERE April 14 soooooooooooo boredI just have this strong feeling now.
You know what, right now I may make a big rock star
 Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... April 11 My DreamMy Dream
I dream of a dream.
I dream that my dream shall someday come true.
I dream that all my dreams shall not remain just a dream.
I dream for that day when all these dreams are realized.
I dream that I don’t spend my days dreaming.
I dream that my dreams shall be more than just dreams.
I dream that these dreams will make me dream more.
Though these are dreams today,
I dream of making them a reality one day.
I will always be dreaming of these dreams,
So that I do have hope in life,
I still hope that this life is worth living.
(Note:I copied it from somewhere else) I realize this is also my dream. It happens in life when we are too busy or too tired to care about our dreams, or we just simply lose sight of them. But that doesn't mean we've or we can give them up any more than we can give up on ourselves. Do not doubt ourselves. Stay motivated and stick to our faith, coz life can change what we are but not who we are. Dreams are our hope in life. If we turn our back on them, one day we are gonna find ouselves end up losing the reason to simply live. Always try to find ways back to your dreams. I wish us all a happy, meaningful and rewarding life. |
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Well, my friends, whenever I see your words here I can feel the strength in me again. We are never apart in mind, and distance is not that intimidating.  Have a nice day.
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and i also know that for some people its not an important thing to remember and schedule all their plans according to that 
see i am so bad and mean 
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......... and in my opinion only i became her "good friend or may be someone who can be remembered", after that second chat).............. since then its like a long journey... (although no one should hav any doubts about her being stupid) but in my opinion, some of her good qualities:
and wat i hav written above, means A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED......in my country
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